it's like a surreal feeling. it feels like one big, horrible joke and the next minute i'm gonna hear that vinh's okay, he's woken up, and it wasn't as serious as everyone made it out to be. but i know that's not the truth. and i know that in several hours, he will no longer be with us. i haven't quite felt this or gone through something like this for a long time now. and like kim said, vinh's teaching us a lot right now. how to handle the loss of someone you knew, especially when it's at the hands of a complete stranger, who decided for one night to be irresponsible and drive drunk. he didn't deserve this, he didn't do anything wrong. life isn't fair, and this is the harshest way to learn that. especially for vinh. this was such an unnecessary loss. one little mistake, in that driver's eyes at the time he decided to get in his car, was felt by one in the ultimate way, and by hundreds in the worst kind of emotion.
i guess i'm learning that i shouldn't take friends for granted. just their presence, the simple fact that they're there and you are acquainted. because it can all be taken in a moment, with no warning, and you're just left with an unfinished path in your life. even if you don't talk to them every day, or have lost touch over the months or years... underneath anything that may or may not have been there, there's always that little bond that links you forever as people conscious of each other in this world. it doesn't matter what kind of impact they've had on you, as long as they've had one. and that will always last, even if you don't want it to, don't remember it, or don't realize it.
this is a small opportunity. but i want to grasp it and tell you. i love you all. best friends, friends, acquaitances. you're all a part of me, no matter how small.
September 27th, 1986 -- August 19th, 2005
vinh... have a safe journey up to that better place. it's so disheartening to know exactly when we're going to lose you. but if that's what is best, then i guess that's it. no one at our age should have to experience what you did. you fought hard, man.
see you soon.
there is a light that shines
special for you, baby